I don't want to do a depressing post because that's not who I am but being a MS Warrior Mommy has been challenging the last three days. I pushed myself this weekend and am paying for it now. I try to press forward every day and ignore the leg pain and numbness but it's been hard. School drop off, pick up, gymnastics, playground trips, house cleaning and daily activities are all monumental tasks this week. I'm going against my usual self and taking a break today. There is still tons of laundry, toys everywhere, groceries to be bought but I'm taking a pause today while the kids are in school. Sometimes moms need a break.
Before I was diagnosed, I thought I was the worst mom ever. I would start my day feeling pretty good but about an hour into my day, I started to decline. This is still the case but now I understand why and I realize I'm basically fighting a losing battle with myself. Everyday it's still the same. I start my day feeling okay and then feel myself start to decline right after I do school drop off. After doing all of my mommy duties and taking a break for lunch, I am excited to get the kids and do some fun activities. I pump myself up and get everything ready before pickup. They come home and the demands and arguing start. Snacks? Bath time? Who had the pony first? I feel myself starting to decline again but there is no break for me now. The drowning starts. I still try to continue with the fun activity I had planned but it becomes more challenging. By the time dinner needs to be started, I feel like I'm just barely holding on. They want me to play a game or do another activi